In Memory Of Our Good Friend, Shiro

It is said that death is a normal part of our daily lives and that in order to keep a balance in this great circle of life, sacrifices must be made. Most of us fear death, some might admit it and some may not. Others welcome death as they know it is essential. I do not laugh at death in it's face. I am more of a person who has mixed emotions over it. What I do know is that we may never know when our day may be our last so why waste your time on petty things?

I met a person a year or so ago. She was a friend of my college friend. I didn't know her well and we were not very close but she was a kind hearted person who smiled through it all. I met her because we were planning on cosplaying together. At that time, we went to the tailoring shop to get our outfits. We had fun. It was my first and last encounter of her. The group cosplay never really happened but we still had out outfits to this very day. I haven't seen her in a while but sometimes I chat with her. She was an over all nice girl who had many friends who loved her.

Today when I logged into my Facebook account, I saw my college friend post something n her status. There were three consecutive ones that were saying that her friend, Shiro, had died. I immediately sent her a message asking her who this person is and if she was the one I met not so very long ago. Then she confirmed it. It was indeed her. She died of aneurysm and she was only 30. It was a real shocker. Sure, we weren't the best of friends or even close enough for me to feel this way but I feel sad for her and for her family. She had been a good person and now, I wish I knew her better.

I value my friends and my family more than anybody else in this world and it's this kind of news that can make a person even more paranoid with life. I may be breathing, sleeping and eating now but what happens tomorrow when all that I thought I had lived for is gone? I can be gone tomorrow, so are my friends and family. Now, it makes me think about what I have done in this world while I am still alive. I know I haven't been exactly perfect but somehow I feel that what I have done up to this point is still not enough.

You know what they say about people saying good stuff about you when you are gone? It does happen but when I do hear them saying such things all that comes in mind is this: Why now? Why not earlier when he/she was still alive? I guess nobody can tell. This incident has become an eye-opener for me. I don't know how my life will end up but I feel like I should try harder to have a better life so that when one day, God takes me, I would be ready and would have no regrets whatsoever about everything in my life. So, cheers to you, Shiro, wherever you may be. I hope that you are in a peaceful place right now and may your soul rest in peace.

A photo of Shiro cosplaying. Those were happy times.
Before I bid you farewell, all I can say is that death is not the end but merely the beginning. We might have lost you too soon but we know in our hearts you will stay. For you were a great person and that even if I know that there are other people who are bad enough and who deserve to have died instead of you, we know that everything happens for a reason. So, my friend, we will miss you and thank you so much for everything.